The process of Recovery

I have been home from the hospital for 4 days. It gets easier everyday, I wish Jeff were here to help......but somehow he always gets to leave right when things get going. Incase you haven't picked up on it I am alittle bitter about that lol.
The kids have been...well as good as kids usually are when their dad is away and their mom is stuck on the couch or bed and can't "enforce" the rules. The boys don't understand what is going on and why mommy isn't up and playing. Yesterday I had my friend Natasha over here helping me all day, she got here at lunch, she was doing dishes, sweeping, and general pick up. Ramie came over to the couch and said "moma how come Matasha is cleaning and you are not". Of course that made me feel like a piece of crap.
I have been doing to much I can tell that this morning it hurt and I wasn't even out of the bed yet.
I have given birth to 5 kids and I am here to tell you, this surgery was 50x worse than laboring a 10lb 2 feet long baby (Cecilia). I have stitches in places I can't even mention and can only see with a mirror. The day I came home from the hospital my "va jay jay" was so swollen it was hard to put my legs together let alone sit down. But like I said everyday it gets a little better. I just hope that by the time we leave it will be better, I could not imagine sitting in an airplane for many many hours in this condition.